A Sinner’s Way of the Cross

This Lent comes as the Church prepares for the 100th anniversary of Our Lady’s appearance at Fatima. After the Year of Mercy, it is a time to pray for the conversion of sinners.

Pope Francis has said that the most damaging characteristic of our world is that it has lost the sense of sin. What better way to remember the horror of sin and the beauty of conversion than to meditate on the Passion of Jesus, who died for our sins? Here are Way of the Cross meditations on the tragedy of sin in each life.

Opening prayer:

Lord Jesus, in obedience to Our Lady of Fatima, I pray today for the conversion of sinners. As I retrace the steps you took on your way of the cross, I remember that I, too, am among those sinners who are in need of conversion.

Lord, help us understand the gravity of sin and work to root it out in our lives. As St. Francis of Assisi said: “Since our sins made the Lord Christ suffer the torment of the cross, those who plunge themselves into disorders and crimes crucify the Son of God anew in their hearts.”

First Station

Pilate condemns Jesus

“Crucify him!” they said. “The verdict of Pilate was that their demand should be granted.” Luke 23:21, 24

From Eve in the Garden to Pilate in the praetorium, the first step to sin has always been the same: We turn God into a tyrant, and condemn him.

We have before us Jesus, our Lord and friend. He wants to know us and love us. But we hear other voices, as well. Satan whispers, “Don’t trust him. He only wants to limit you.” The crowds demand we side with them, against him. Like Eve, like Pilate, we too easily give in. We pretend God is a bully and that his kingdom of truth is irrelevant to our lives.

We tie a sign around him — “King of the Jews” — and send him away.

Pray: Jesus, when we are tempted to shut out your voice and condemn you, help us imitate your response to Pilate. Help us stand for love against the powers of this world. Help us stand with you.

The Second Station

Jesus Accepts His Cross

“Carrying the cross himself he went out to what is called the Place of the Skull, in Hebrew, Golgotha.” John 19:17

Here is our second surrender to sin:  We put burdens on our love that it cannot bear.

True love doesn’t count the cost — it does everything for the beloved. Once a lover starts asking, “Why should I help you? Why should I accept you? How can I get more out of you?” love has started to die.  When we say, “How far can I go? Why shouldn’t I do as I like? Why should God matter?” love is dying.

The burden of a calculating, conditional love is a weight too heavy even for Jesus to bear.

Pray: Jesus, once we start counting the cost, every ounce of our love is too much. When temptation comes, give us the grace to imitate how you accepted your cross, how you gave all for love.

The Third Station

Jesus Falls the First Time

“I was pushed hard, so that I was falling, but the Lord helped me.” Psalm 118:13

“Do you renounce sin, so as to live in the freedom of the children of God?” The Church asked, when we renewed our baptismal promises. We said, “I do.”

But now, faced with sin, we do not choose to be children of God. We do not choose freedom. We choose our old family, the family of sin. We slink back into the ranks of those who march in lockstep with whatever whim their appetites demand.

We knock Jesus to the dust, and we step right over him.

Pray: Jesus, sin is never inevitable. Our baptismal grace makes us free to love you in the face of temptation. Once we take the first tentative steps into sin, give us the grace of freedom once again: The freedom to stop sinning. The freedom to love.

The Fourth Station

Jesus Meets His Mother

“Standing by the cross of Jesus [was] his mother.” John 19:25

Every fall of man is met with a loving response from God. At Fatima, the warning comes from his mother.

If the celebration is great in heaven over one repentant sinner, then imagine how great must the sorrow when a soul falls away. Whenever we stick with our sin, this scene is repeated: Jesus exchanges with his mother a look of unutterable sadness. And they invite us to stop.

Pray: Our Lady, Refuge of Sinners, you want to lift us out of our misery, redirect us from our folly, and fortify us against the evil one. Mother of mercy, look after the poor banished children of Eve!

The Fifth Station

Simon of Cyrene Helps Carry the Cross

“They met a Cyrenian named Simon; this man they pressed into service to carry his cross.” Matthew 27:32

Our most common sin is the sin against the Golden Rule: “Do to others as you would have them do to you.”

We twist that so easily to, “Get others to do what you won’t do for them.” Or, “Do unto others before they do unto you.” In our sin, we judge people according to how useful they are to us, or what threat they are to us. We become like the Romans, dragging Simons into our misdeeds.

But as we use those around us, Jesus sees them for what they are, and loves them.

Pray: Jesus, teach us to love those around us as you do, embracing and helping them. Give us the grace to draw them not into sins but into our own life of love and service at your side, united by your cross.

The Sixth Station

Veronica Wipes the Face of Jesus

“Just as we have borne the image of the man of dust, we shall also bear the image of the man of heaven.” 1 Corinthians 15:49

Or, instead of sinning by using others for their utility, we use them for pleasure.

An image of Jesus’s face appeared on Veronica’s cloth. Veronica means “true image.” But lust makes us objectify others people, turning a True Image of God into a bit player in our base desire. Then, our sin feeds off of their sin. We use them (in person or in a picture, in our minds or in our actions) as long as lust lasts, then cast them off.

But Jesus stamps his face on everyone he made, saying “What you do to them, you do to me.”

Pray: Jesus, when we are tempted to use others for passing physical pleasure, give us the purity of heart that sees the permanent spiritual value each person has in your eyes. Help us see your image, and love.

The Seventh Station

Jesus Falls the Second Time

“Therefore let any one who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall.” 1 Corinthians 10:12

“Do you reject the lure of evil, so that sin may have no mastery over you?” They asked. “I do,” we said.

But just as Eve “saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the eyes,” we are easily dazzled by the slick, shiny things that we know are not for us. The glamour of evil looks so much more enticing than the sacrificial suffering of Jesus.

But when we choose a small, gaudy thing over our creator, the weight of our betrayal is crushing.

Pray: Lord Jesus, give us the grace to value the beauty and worth of sacrificial love over the slick and superficial attraction of the sins we spend our time with.

The Eighth Station

Jesus meets the women of Jerusalem.

Jesus said “Do not weep for me; weep instead for yourselves and for your children.” Luke 23:28

The warning voice that comes after each sin now comes from Jesus himself.

He warns us that sin breeds sin. Small rejections of God today spread and grow tomorrow. “If they do this when the wood is green, imagine what they will do when it is dry?” He predicts that sin will mount on sin to build a world where children are seen as a burden. “The days are coming when people will say, ‘Blessed are the barren, the wombs that never bore and the breasts that never nursed.’”

He describes where our sin leads: To a culture of death and kingdom of lies.

Pray: Lord Jesus, help us never forget that our lives, and our decisions, do not affect us alone. Nor do our virtues. Help us become the citizens of the kingdom of God you need us to be.

The Ninth Station

Jesus falls a third time.

“For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again; but the wicked are overthrown by calamity.” Proverbs 24:16

The Church asked us: “Do you reject Satan, the author and prince of sin?” We answered “I do.”

But sometimes we don’t reject him. We know we should, but we just don’t want to. There is a war in us. “What I do, I do not understand,” says St. Paul. “I take delight in the law of God, in my inner self … but I see in my members another principle at war with the law of my mind, taking me captive to the law of sin.” He asks: “Miserable one that I am! Who will deliver me from this mortal body?”

Jesus today answers, “I will.”

Pray: Lord Jesus, our sin enslaves us. Our sin builds a kingdom for our enemy. But you are stronger. You are more lovable. Your grace is sufficient. Come and save us.